Thursday, May 16, 2013

Hello, again.

It's been a little over a year since my last post. I've actually debated continuing on with this blog as it seemed that every time my heart was running over with words to type, the time would just escape me. A message I received from a FB friend telling me how much my blog helped her during the time she lost one of her twin boys was just the spark I needed to ignite the fire.
It is truly amazing what the Lord can do with such tragic circumstances. There was a time in my life that I could see no way out, no future, no hope....My feelings overwhelmed me and I was being suffocated by despair, when the spirit of the living God revived me again with His words of life.
I am looking back at the last two years with so much amazement. Now, a new baby girl, only 4-months-old, sleeps quietly in a crib. My surviving twin, Gianluca, is much more a "big boy" and much less "baby", but I am happy to watch him grow. Two years ago I did not know if I would lose him, also, or if he had been permanently brain damaged. I remember the times of watching his crib in the hospital, not wanting to close my eyes for a minute in case something went wrong. Fear gripping me as images of his brother's limp body in my hands played over and over for me.
I am understanding heaven more, understanding grace more, understanding the deep, deep love of Christ. None of this would have come about had I not lost my little Julian. And even while I type that I know it is partially a lie because, he is not lost. He is alive and in glory with my Lord.
More to come, I cannot wait to keep writing and sharing the goodness of the Lord. How he has brought beauty from my ashes and allowed my boys to be vessels of His glory.

"Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God." 1 Cor 1:4